Lyrics

"I think the running theme is that of loss. Something I only realised to be the case very recently..."

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Overwrought

 

All that I am is laid out on the page
Got to strike out to learn something more of you
Wonder if you judge me, I get more anxious as I age
This is my version of pictures that I drew
 
Like a black cloud swallowed us whole
Can't help but take it all to heart 
 
Need to be rescued, therapy in words
If this doesn't work, does life go by unheard
 
Laying it out, and leaving it too late
Observe the years, are passing us so quick
Balance it all, mid life crisis state
Find a way, just can't seem to stick 
 
All that I am is laid out on the sheet
Got to reach out to connect with just a few
Perhaps I'll let you judge me, until you turn away in rage
If we finish it now we'll never start anew
 
Like a black cloud swallowed us whole
Can't help but take it all to heart 
 
Need to be rescued, therapy in words
If this doesn't work, does life go by unheard
 
Laying it out, and leaving it too late
Observe the years, are passing us so quick
Balance it all, mid life crisis state
Find a way, just can't seem to stick 
 
All that I am is in your head
Got my hands out for something new

 

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Grays Grown

 

Where did you go 

And would you know me now
Taller than I ever was before
 
Are you a shrunken old man
With a retirement plan 
Do you have thoughts you ignore 
Do you have thoughts you ignore 
 
Chances pass like the ships you drive
Wonder if I'll meet you whilst I'm still alive
Would we get along, left on our own 
Do you recognise me?
Grays grown 
 
I remember aged eight
You'd call throughout the night 
Why did you fight & then just disappear
 
Have you become someone else
Or just stayed within yourself 
Are there memorable dates you ignore
Memorable dates you ignore
 
Chances pass like the ships you drive
Wonder if I'll meet you whilst I'm still alive
Would we get along, left on our own 
Do you recognise me?
Grays grown 
 
Where did you go 
And would you know me now
Taller than I ever was before
(Before)
Do you have thoughts, 
Do you have thoughts you ignore
(ignore) 
Do you have thoughts, 
Do you have thoughts you ignore
You ignore 

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Two Lives 

 

Aged 28 and a mother of two                                           
What did she have I couldn't give you
Convenience yes, lived just down the road                                                           
So why did you reach me whenever you could
 
Blonde hair
And blue eyes
We wear clothes that are the same size
Long hair
And ripped jeans
To us both you'd say the same thing 
 
Another six months and I start to forget
Then suddenly you call when I least expect
I answer the phone but I don't know why
In two weeks we'll argue there'll be no goodbye
 
Blonde hair
And blue eyes
We wear clothes that are the same size
Long hair
And ripped jeans
To us both you'd say the same thing 
 
Take me away you say
To a cottage on holiday 
Time comes, but you disappear away
Away
 
 

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Photographs
 
It's been two weeks
But I can't bring myself to change the sheets
I keep on 
Pretending I'll see you 
 
You look different in your 
Than in real life or my 
Find that you don't really
Than in real life when I
Steal a glance at you 
 
It's been two years 
Since we ignored ourselves 
Give me more memories, 
Keep on extending 
 
You look different in your 
Than in real life or my 
Find that you don't really
Than in real life when I
Steal a glance at you 
 
You look different in your 
Than in real life or my 
Find that you don't even
Than in real life when I
Steal a glance at you 
 
Feel a little rush
My thoughts no longer here
She asks me what I'm smiling at
 
Feel a little rush
My thoughts no longer here
She makes my head feel clear
 
You look different in your 
Than in real life or my 
Find that you don't really
Than in real life when I 
 
You look different in your 
Than in real life or my 
Find that you don't really
Than in real life when I 
 
Steal a glance 
Steal
 

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Stannah Road
 
Yeah I knew
Oh I knew
How I knew
Oh I knew
Of his air of disgrace
 
'Cause there were lines
There were lines
There were lines
There were lines
Across his nineteen year old face
 
In my head
In my head
In my head
I'd run
Pick flowers for you
 
Well somehow
Somehow
Somehow
You'd remember
Its simple colours that are true
 
Yeah I knew
Oh I knew
How I knew
Well I knew
He was a disgrace
 
Storylines
Storylines
Storylines
Storylines
They crossed his nineteen year old face
 
In your head
In your head
In your head
You knew
We were worlds apart 
 
I was pulled
I was pulled
I was pulled
I was pulled
Freed by a brand new start
 
I think you liked me there
Sleeping in your home
Or you were simply scared 
Of winding up alone 
 
Think you liked me there
Sleeping in your home
You were simply scared 
Of winding up alone 
 

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Envelopes

 

My eyeline

In my eyeline

 

Right here in my eyeline
Not sure if it's for me
Distract myself with another's embrace
There's a big wide world to see
 
Pick it up later
Won't go if it's meant to be
Distract myself with the human race
Sure I'm already happy
 
Open it slowly
See what is real
Hold it up to the light
There's more yet to reveal
 
Dust it off carefully
Nerves are concealed 
Perhaps this will remind me
I forgot how to feel
 
Dust it off carefully
Nerves are concealed 
Perhaps this will remind me
I forgot how to feel
 
I forgot how to feel
I forgot how to feel
 
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Playgrounds
 
Here I am on a swing
The only thing that helps me out
Is writing words to sing 
Here I am and I try
Turns out that makes it all much worse
I'm so trying when I cry
 
Here I am going round
It goes so fast I can't get off
Something has to stop 
Here I am being calm
This is life just bottled up
We don't know who we are 

 

Listen to the words

Listen to the words
And when the actions speak much louder
That's when they really hurt
 
Listen to the heart
Listen for the hints
If you want to know the thoughts
That's where you'll get a glimpse
 
Used to be strong
What did we become 
Now I'm just afraid 
Of everything I say 
 

Listen to the words

Listen to the words
And when the actions speak much louder
That's when they really hurt
 
Listen to the heart
Listen for the hints
If you want to know the thoughts
That's where you'll get a glimpse
 
We used to be so strong
What did we become 
Now I'm just afraid 
I'm just afraid
 
Listen to the heart
​Listen to the heart
​Listen to the heart
​Listen to the heart
​Listen to the heart
​Listen to the heart
 
Listen to my
 
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On The Outside

 

Everything seems clear

When you're on the perimeter 
Everything you fear
Occurrs when you're trapped in here
 
Never mind
Pretend everything is ok
Rocking the boat isn't always wise
What do your friends say
On the outside 
 
Looking back
Will it matter in five years time 
Frightened resolve can crack you
Even when its all going fine
 
Never mind
Pretend everything is ok
Rocking the boat isn't always wise
What do your friends say
On the outside
 
Don't be rash
No please don't rush
Could you ruin all you have
Don't be rash
No please don't rush
Letting your worries push and push
 
Don't be rash
No please don't rush
Could you ruin all you have
Don't be rash
No please don't rush
Letting your worries push and push
 
Never mind
Pretend everything is ok
Rocking the boat isn't always wise
What do your friends say
On the outside 
 
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Five Strings

 

 

Too late now

Just people looking out at passing cars

No finish line, 
Mascara, and thoughts are all streaked
 
Funny old end to a good day
Reasoning best short term not to peak
Funny old end to a good day
Should we make decisions 
After too little sleep
 
One door closed
Didn't get the chance to truly hear why
Departed with a heart that changes 
More than the sky
 
Funny old end to a good start
Right now we don't know where we'll be next week
Funny old end to a good start
Should we make decisions 
When we're less than concrete 
 
Hesitation
Can sometimes scupper your judgement
Realisation 
Relief, resolve having an argument
Relief, resolve having an argument 
 
Hesitation
Realisation
 
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Out Cold

 

Fancy hotel to celebrate a wedding

You turn up in another place
A hazy reception off taking 
Magic to make you feel space
 
Put your jacket back on
Your shirt sleeve is gone 
Stop rubbing your nose 
These are new lows 
 
The gathering is over 
I try to steady you, car's outside
You're so far away, no composure 
Treat my friends like a taxi ride
 
Though my feelings conflicted 
Back to your house I go
Not sure what I'll find there
Doubts I'll carefully stow
 
What do you want from me
Is this how it's meant to be
What do you want from me
Is this how we'll always be?
 
You're passed on the floor
Open patio door. 
Sprawled out on that floor
Wide open door
 
Your shirt sleeve still gone 
Stopped rubbing your nose 
I check your breathing flows
 
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Part Of Me 
 
 
Right now
To function
Asks too much
 
Believe it
Wish this was not the case
 
Part of me has slipped away with you
 
Keep together
Brave face, steady, on
 
Make everyone believe 
That all is just ok 
 
Part of me has slipped away from you
 
Let it be known
Fighting isn't easy
 
Believe it
Wish this was not the case
 
Part of me has slipped away without you
Part of me has said goodbye to you
 
All of me doesn't know what else 
To do
 
I've said goodbye to you
 
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Atomised

 

In this last ten thousand miles

I won't tell you something's changed

I won't admit the clock beat me

Or that needs can be explained

 

Together I am stronger

At least I know now this is true

But you can't give me what I crave

Across the ocean blue

 

Digging deep into my pockets, pretending I didn't care

Digging deep into my conscience, and now my will starts to tear

I wished to be unyielding, but we're just atoms after all

 

In this last ten thousand miles

Did you ever feel the same

Could you give your body freely

And pretend to cause no pain

 

Together I am stronger

At least I know now this is true

But you can't give me what I crave

Across the ocean blue

 

I was unyielding for a while

I was unyielding for a while

I was unyielding for a while (I was unyielding)

I was unyielding for a while (I was unyielding)

I was unyielding 

 

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