Lyrics
"I think the running theme is that of loss. Something I only realised to be the case very recently..."
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Overwrought
All that I am is laid out on the page
Got to strike out to learn something more of you
Wonder if you judge me, I get more anxious as I age
This is my version of pictures that I drew
Like a black cloud swallowed us whole
Can't help but take it all to heart
Need to be rescued, therapy in words
If this doesn't work, does life go by unheard
Laying it out, and leaving it too late
Observe the years, are passing us so quick
Balance it all, mid life crisis state
Find a way, just can't seem to stick
All that I am is laid out on the sheet
Got to reach out to connect with just a few
Perhaps I'll let you
judge me, until you turn away in rage
If we finish it now we'll never start
anew
Like a black cloud swallowed us whole
Can't help but take it all to heart
Need to be rescued, therapy in words
If this doesn't work, does life go by unheard
Laying it out, and leaving it too late
Observe the years, are passing us so quick
Balance it all, mid life crisis state
Find a way, just can't seem to stick
All that I am is in your head
Got my hands out for something new
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Grays Grown
Where did you go
And would you know me now
Taller than I ever was before
Are you a shrunken old man
With a retirement plan
Do you have thoughts you ignore
Do you have thoughts you ignore
Chances pass like the ships you drive
Wonder if I'll meet you whilst I'm still alive
Would we get along, left on our own
Do you recognise me?
Grays grown
I remember aged eight
You'd call throughout
the night
Why did you fight & then just disappear
Have you become someone else
Or just stayed within yourself
Are there memorable dates you ignore
Memorable dates you ignore
Chances pass like the ships you drive
Wonder if I'll meet you whilst I'm still alive
Would we get along, left on our own
Do you recognise me?
Grays grown
Where did you go
And would you know me now
Taller than I ever was before
(Before)
Do you have thoughts,
Do you have thoughts you ignore
(ignore)
Do you have thoughts,
Do you have thoughts you ignore
You ignore
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Two Lives
Aged 28 and a
mother of two
What did she have I couldn't
give you
Convenience yes, lived just
down the road
So why did you reach me
whenever you could
Blonde hair
And blue eyes
We wear clothes that are the
same size
Long hair
And ripped jeans
To us both you'd say the same
thing
Another six months and I
start to forget
Then suddenly you call when I
least expect
I answer the phone but I
don't know why
In two weeks we'll argue
there'll be no goodbye
Blonde hair
And blue eyes
We wear clothes that are the same size
Long hair
And ripped jeans
To us both you'd say the same thing
Take me away you
say
To a cottage on
holiday
Time comes, but you disappear
away
Away
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Photographs
It's been two weeks
But I can't bring myself to change the sheets
I keep on
Pretending I'll see you
You look different in
your
Than in real life or my
Find that you don't really
Than in real life when I
Steal a glance at you
It's been two years
Since we ignored ourselves
Give me more memories,
Keep on extending
You look different in your
Than in real life or my
Find that you don't
really
Than in real life when I
Steal a glance at you
You look different in your
Than in real life or my
Find that you don't
even
Than in real life when I
Steal a glance at you
Feel a little rush
My thoughts no longer here
She asks me what I'm smiling at
Feel a little rush
My thoughts no longer here
She makes my head feel clear
You look different in your
Than in real life or my
Find that you don't really
Than in real life when I
You look different in your
Than in real life or my
Find that you don't
really
Than in real life when I
Steal a glance
Steal
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Stannah Road
Yeah I knew
Oh I knew
How I knew
Oh I knew
Of his air
of disgrace
'Cause there were lines
There were lines
There were lines
There were lines
Across his nineteen year old face
In my head
In my head
In my head
I'd run
Pick flowers for you
Well somehow
Somehow
Somehow
You'd remember
Its simple colours that are true
Yeah I knew
Oh I knew
How I knew
Well I knew
He was a disgrace
Storylines
Storylines
Storylines
Storylines
They crossed his nineteen year old face
In your head
In your head
In your head
You knew
We were worlds apart
I was pulled
I was pulled
I was pulled
I was pulled
Freed by a brand new start
I think you liked me there
Sleeping in your home
Or you were simply scared
Of winding up alone
Think you liked me there
Sleeping in your home
You were simply scared
Of winding up alone
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Envelopes
My eyeline
In my eyeline
Right here in my eyeline
Not sure if it's for me
Distract myself with another's embrace
There's a big wide world to see
Pick it up later
Won't go if it's meant to be
Distract myself with the human race
Sure I'm already happy
Open it slowly
See what is real
Hold it up to the light
There's more yet to reveal
Dust it off carefully
Nerves are concealed
Perhaps this will remind me
I forgot how to feel
Dust it off carefully
Nerves are concealed
Perhaps this will remind me
I forgot how to feel
I forgot
how to feel
I forgot
how to feel
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Playgrounds
Here I am on a swing
The only thing that helps me out
Is writing words to sing
Here I am and I try
Turns out that makes it all much worse
I'm so trying when I cry
Here I am going round
It goes so fast I can't get off
Something has to stop
Here I am being calm
This is life just bottled up
We don't know who we are
Listen to the words
Listen to
the words
And when the actions speak much louder
That's when they really hurt
Listen to the heart
Listen for the hints
If you want to know the thoughts
That's where you'll get a glimpse
Used to be strong
What did we become
Now I'm just afraid
Of everything I say
Listen to the words
Listen to the words
And when the actions speak much louder
That's when they really hurt
Listen to the heart
Listen for the hints
If you want to know the thoughts
That's where you'll get a glimpse
We used to be so strong
What did we become
Now I'm just afraid
I'm just afraid
Listen to the heart
Listen to the heart
Listen to the heart
Listen to the heart
Listen to the heart
Listen to the heart
Listen to my
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On The Outside
Everything seems clear
When you're on the perimeter
Everything you fear
Occurrs when you're trapped in here
Never mind
Pretend everything is ok
Rocking the boat isn't always wise
What do your friends say
On the outside
Looking back
Will it matter in five years time
Frightened resolve can crack you
Even when its all going fine
Never mind
Pretend everything is ok
Rocking the boat isn't always wise
What do your friends say
On the outside
Don't be rash
No please don't rush
Could you ruin all you have
Don't be rash
No please don't rush
Letting your worries push and push
Don't be rash
No please don't rush
Could you ruin all you have
Don't be rash
No please don't rush
Letting your worries push and push
Never mind
Pretend everything is ok
Rocking the boat isn't always wise
What do your friends say
On the outside
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Five Strings
Too late now
Just people looking out at passing cars
No finish line,
Mascara, and thoughts are all streaked
Funny old end to a good day
Reasoning best short term not to peak
Funny old end to a good day
Should we make decisions
After too little sleep
One door closed
Didn't get the chance to truly hear why
Departed with a heart that changes
More than the sky
Funny old end to a good start
Right now we don't know where we'll be next
week
Funny old end to a good start
Should we make decisions
When we're less than concrete
Hesitation
Can sometimes scupper your judgement
Realisation
Relief, resolve having an argument
Relief, resolve having an argument
Hesitation
Realisation
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Out Cold
Fancy hotel to celebrate a wedding
You turn up in another place
A hazy reception off taking
Magic to make you feel space
Put your jacket back on
Your shirt sleeve is gone
Stop rubbing your nose
These are new lows
The gathering is over
I try to steady you, car's outside
You're so far away, no composure
Treat my friends like a taxi ride
Though my feelings conflicted
Back to your house I go
Not sure what I'll find there
Doubts I'll carefully stow
What do you want from me
Is this how it's meant to be
What do you want from me
Is this how we'll always be?
You're passed on the floor
Open patio door.
Sprawled out on that floor
Wide open door
Your shirt sleeve still gone
Stopped rubbing your nose
I check your breathing flows
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Part Of Me
Right now
To function
Asks too much
Believe it
Wish this was not the case
Part of me has slipped away with you
Keep together
Brave face, steady, on
Make everyone believe
That all is just ok
Part of me has slipped away from you
Let it be known
Fighting isn't easy
Believe it
Wish this was not the case
Part of me has slipped away without you
Part of me has said goodbye to you
All of me doesn't know what else
To do
I've said goodbye to you
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Atomised
In this last ten thousand miles
I won't tell you something's changed
I won't admit the clock beat me
Or that needs can be explained
Together I am stronger
At least I know now this is true
But you can't give me what I crave
Across the ocean blue
Digging deep into my pockets, pretending I didn't care
Digging deep into my conscience, and now my will starts to tear
I wished to be unyielding, but we're just atoms after all
In this last ten thousand miles
Did you ever feel the same
Could you give your body freely
And pretend to cause no pain
Together I am stronger
At least I know now this is true
But you can't give me what I crave
Across the ocean blue
I was unyielding for a while
I was unyielding for a while
I was unyielding for a while (I was unyielding)
I was unyielding for a while (I was unyielding)
I was unyielding
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